Being single or in relationship? That is a tough question to answer. Being single has it pros and cons and also does being in relationship. Thinking back few years, when in relationship, the relationship cannot be called as real relationship. Even though gain some experience from it, but still lack of what a couple usually do when together, base on what i think and from television shows.

Whenever I saw my friends together with their partner, somehow deep down inside my heart, I feel jealous or maybe envy. How I wish I can have a partner as well. Having a partner means extra responsibility but also means that having a listener that is trustworthy as well as someone to cuddle with. Maybe my thinking is childish, but this is how i think and wish, wanted to become a child again, experience it and do silly stuffs. Maybe because i did not do much of them during my childhood. Memories of childhood seem like does not exist in my brain at all, even if got, only bits and pieces only, not a complete one, a fragment, I should say. Seeing most of my friends can recall back their memories, whether is good, happy, sad and etc. How I wish that I can do that as well. Nonetheless, having memories and not share out with people is also another problem for me. Sometimes people do take time to get to know my present as well as paying attention to what i have to say.

Service at Church on Saturday

Well, yesterday afternoon i go to church again with my friend just like last week loh, kinda attracted to it with the environment, just like wat Jacob mention, ppl come to the church because of the environment and friendly people and not because of they like Jesus very much. kinda true and make sense of wat he say. i really like the environment there as well as can listen to the soothing music. besides that, can go to church to listen to story and learn new thing as well. think bout wat i have done in the pass and like how to improve them as well as know wat mistake i had done and try not to repeat them if possible and also the way of life. kinda interesting to me.

The sermon today is about parents, how we should treats our parents, respect them and take good care of them. well, base on wat Jacob say, i really din treat my parents very well loh. kinda sad and kinda make sense of wat he say during his preach. Quite interesting also his preach. we should not raise out voice when talking to our parents, respect our parents, love our parents, communicate with our parents and be with our parents as often as possible, accompany them loh. Seem like i din know do most of the above. so during the end of the service, Jacob ask whoever want to ask for forgiveness from God, can go up-front and ask for it. quite a number of person went up there loh and who are they, i cannot mention since this thing is like consider personal loh. my fren beside ask me if i need to seek prayer from the pastor as well, like ask me to go up-front with the rest of people. So, i just shake my hand and say no, no need. TO be honest, i really need to seek forgiveness loh. From who, i myself also not sure. and since i still learning to talk, to communicate with people as well as how to respect ppl, maybe it takes time loh. sometimes really dont know how to communicate with parents and brothers because since kids/small, already no communication at all to begin with since most of us are quiet. and because of this, we all end up keep quiet only, become quiet till now loh.

overall, can say that there is some improvement in myself loh, like can talk a more than usual if u like compare me with the old me in secondary school.really loh. till now, i still learning loh,how to improve my communication skill as well as like how to talks craps. really dont noe how to talk craps loh. always serious only. but ho, i kinda like to listen to stories more than talking.haha. this is true,dont know why i like to listen to ppl talk, listen to their stories compare with me telling them stories, since like no one want to listen to mine also loh.haiz.sad. seem like no one pay attention to me when i open my mouth.

Since like a few week din update my blog already and alvin keep on asking, 'got update blog or not'. so now, i updating my blog since i got something to write already loh.haha. been here in kl for like almost 2 weeks already and i mostly spend at home,eat,sleep,watching movie,drama. been out like 2 or 3 times only.haha. well, my fren ask me to join a church camp, organise by him during 22 to 24 this month. since i got nothing to do,so i eventually agree with him since he say this camp is not about worship, it is about 'true love worth waiting'. seem like i more interested in love thing. hmm, who knows maybe can meet my true love at the church camp loh or maybe can see lenglui as well.haha.

i think tats all from me loh since i dont know wat else to write. Have a nice day, Friends

Good Bye Kch

Going to leave kuching in few days time. Times really flies when at kch although everyday stay at home watch tv n drama n movies. already in kch for 3 weeks already and going to kl for some more free times. 1 month plus b4 school reopen as the class start on 2nd week of july. imagine wat i can do there. M i going to be bored there? i wonder.

since this 3 weeks in kch, i already go renew my passport, go watch Spiderman 3, buy another 1GB RAM for my laptop and bring my laptop to NEC CARE for some 'care'. hehe. din go out much because no car to use loh in the day times. wat a luck. i also eaten some of the food tat i miss n keep thinking of when i was in kl. another thing tat i havent do is going to meet CY and u know wat, i going to meet her tomolo night. guess i dont noe wat else to write.

Hello

wah, it has been quite a while since i update my blog, keep reading CY blog.haha. see her always update her blog. maybe she too busy kua.wahaha. i very free, but keep on watching drama and anime and tv. chatting is also one of my activites. well, just now go to the imigresen office to renew my passport and going to take it on tomorrow morning. result r coming out soon. haiz. dont noe wat to say. no feel. haha. just dont think bout it and wait for the result only loh. like keep checking it in like 1 hour once. want to be the 1st to know when result out n go spread the news to friends.hehe. because of want to renew my passport, i go cut my hair, which is also long already.haha. my holidays here in kch will end soon. din go anywhere loh besides going out to yam cha with frens couple of time but still havent go out with CY since she so hard to get hold of. busy person boh.

well, last week end up having 2 times eating steamboat. 1st is to help celebrate helen's belated birthday and it is on thursday night. quite fun as seldom have chance tat we all can gather together and eat and talk togethr. and because of this steamboat, my body temperature goes up for few days. not fever, just feel hot inside the body. after couple of days, ok d. second steamboat was on sunday and it was mother's day, so go eat steamboat again loh since mom cant really eat a lot of stuffs, like fried one cannot eat and etc lah.

Lonely life

cant imagine a day without internet and laptop. wat can i do without them.haiz. really boring loh if no internet. not having to online for almost 48 hours really make times hard to pass. now i laptop already at hospital d and hopefully can take it back as soon as possible loh. now using my mom laptop to online loh. hehe. wat to do, tv also got nothing much to see loh, somemore got satelite. haiz, really not much thing to watch eh. somemore no car to use make me more boring loh. well, tomolo going to watch movie,hehe, at least wont feel so bored at home.

glad to hear tat clara already finish her exam, means most of my friends already finish their exam d, but still have a few have few more papers to go b4 holidays. i wish them luck and all the best.

Just now i go check my account, already reach 200+ loh. hehe. wat a wait, waiting for bout 1 month for it. ppl who are interested bout wat i m talking can find me and ask me bout the kang tau tat i meantion. no harm in listening as can gossip as well ah.