It has been long time since i write blog d loh. maybe someone you will be wondering wat had happen to me for the pass few weeks. This week alone is a tiring week. really 'eat up' a lot of times just to study. Monday, tuesday and thursday(today) exam for just this week and can say i totally screwed up maybe all of them but definatedly screwed up one really badly on tuesday. due to tat, make me very down on tat day itself, feel helpless, feel like almost end of the world.
Haiz, really need someone to talk with, but with WHO? somethings are suppose to share, but to share it/them out, i really need trust them in order for me to express them out. here in KL, i somehow dont have tat kind of feel. maybe coz i dont have any 知心的朋友 kua, i dont not know lah. maybe coz i m the type of quiet person, but sometimes i really need some frens to talk with loh, really feel lonely and helpless, got no one to be with u when ever u need them.
today is the 3rd day of exam and already finished 3 paper, which means left 4 more papers and left bout 2 weeks before i leave KL and back to Kch. hopefully next week will be a better week than this week, hopefully can do well in the upcoming exam. really really really wish tat.
saying of this, there is some kind of problem with my DVD rom eh, which make me no mood again. haiz, when go back to Kch,really need to bring to hospital again and need to clarify the term 'waranty' with the service centre since i already sent my laptop there in May this year.
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when i feel lonely, i browse the MSN, see who i wanted to chat with, but got no one tat catch my eye. i also do not know who i want to chat with and wat to chat about. sometimes really feel boring about it leh. besides that, i also keep thinking of finding a partner but someone no girls out there tat really make me 'tachycardia' and 'hypertension'. *hehe*. really can find one loh coz like can share ups and downs with someone and tat someone can really understand me then can no need to like always think here n think there loh. as one saying say '船到桥头自然直' hopefully this really works loh.
i thinks tats it for me now. good luck to everyone out tat who are having exam and study hard. *wish i also can study hard* and also happy birthday to ppl out there who are having their birthday during the mids of exam period, either this week, last week or maybe next week. hehe. bye and sayonara.
Thursday, November 1, 2007
Tuesday, September 11, 2007
IMU or UCSI
2 months ago, i chat with my friend who is currently studying in IMU. Since i quite some time did not chat with her, so feel curious about her latest happening. first of all, she was just starting studying in IMU, so i was curious about the environment in IMU. she said that the lift cannot be used as it is for staff only and the excalators have broken down and they need to walk up a lot flight of stairs. besides that, she also mention that it is very cold in the classroom, even with a jacket on.
after seeing all those words appear on the screen i somehow feel happy and lucky that i am here at UCSI, with a nice environment. forget about the small campus and have to walk all the time, it is a nice palce to get my degree.
after seeing all those words appear on the screen i somehow feel happy and lucky that i am here at UCSI, with a nice environment. forget about the small campus and have to walk all the time, it is a nice palce to get my degree.
Birthday??? Present???
Birthday is like just an ordinary day for me since not much people remember it. even if they do remember, it is just wishes from them only. not to say that i want people to give me present, but sometimes i do envy people who receive presents during their birthday, seeing how happy they are. is it there any privillage for girls since like they usually will get lots of presents from their friends? every time when friends' birthday, i will always need to spend some money to share present. however, how come i do not get back what i have spent?
everytime when almost my birthday, parents always just go out to have dinner at some restaurant. they will always ask need to celebrate or not, want present or not (I think so), but i always say no need since my birthday always near Chinese New Year. maybe because all my siblings are boys and also seldom communicate well with them. there will not be any present given out by parents to me and my brothers.
everytime when my friends discuss about birthday and present, i always keep quiet and just listen to them discussing. For example, the girls usually wil get 'gold key' when their 21st birthday from their parents, some sign of adulthood. even some of the boys will receive expensive present from parents. me, on the other hand, always receive shirts from friends and out of the last 5 years, 3 years receive shirts and only receive 3 presents in 5 years time. maybe becayse they will say like if they are sincere, it should be ok already. imagine, every year need to spend about RM100 plus for birthday presents for friends and in return, only receive present which cost like RM50 or less each year.
sometimes really feel jealous when see people celebrate birthday with happy environment. how i wish i could experience it. maybe i should treat my friends for some dinner or lunch during my next 22nd birthday. well, this is still pending and need consideration, but still got less than half a year to go before my birthdays. times really fly.
everytime when almost my birthday, parents always just go out to have dinner at some restaurant. they will always ask need to celebrate or not, want present or not (I think so), but i always say no need since my birthday always near Chinese New Year. maybe because all my siblings are boys and also seldom communicate well with them. there will not be any present given out by parents to me and my brothers.
everytime when my friends discuss about birthday and present, i always keep quiet and just listen to them discussing. For example, the girls usually wil get 'gold key' when their 21st birthday from their parents, some sign of adulthood. even some of the boys will receive expensive present from parents. me, on the other hand, always receive shirts from friends and out of the last 5 years, 3 years receive shirts and only receive 3 presents in 5 years time. maybe becayse they will say like if they are sincere, it should be ok already. imagine, every year need to spend about RM100 plus for birthday presents for friends and in return, only receive present which cost like RM50 or less each year.
sometimes really feel jealous when see people celebrate birthday with happy environment. how i wish i could experience it. maybe i should treat my friends for some dinner or lunch during my next 22nd birthday. well, this is still pending and need consideration, but still got less than half a year to go before my birthdays. times really fly.
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
Being single or in relationship? That is a tough question to answer. Being single has it pros and cons and also does being in relationship. Thinking back few years, when in relationship, the relationship cannot be called as real relationship. Even though gain some experience from it, but still lack of what a couple usually do when together, base on what i think and from television shows.
Whenever I saw my friends together with their partner, somehow deep down inside my heart, I feel jealous or maybe envy. How I wish I can have a partner as well. Having a partner means extra responsibility but also means that having a listener that is trustworthy as well as someone to cuddle with. Maybe my thinking is childish, but this is how i think and wish, wanted to become a child again, experience it and do silly stuffs. Maybe because i did not do much of them during my childhood. Memories of childhood seem like does not exist in my brain at all, even if got, only bits and pieces only, not a complete one, a fragment, I should say. Seeing most of my friends can recall back their memories, whether is good, happy, sad and etc. How I wish that I can do that as well. Nonetheless, having memories and not share out with people is also another problem for me. Sometimes people do take time to get to know my present as well as paying attention to what i have to say.
Whenever I saw my friends together with their partner, somehow deep down inside my heart, I feel jealous or maybe envy. How I wish I can have a partner as well. Having a partner means extra responsibility but also means that having a listener that is trustworthy as well as someone to cuddle with. Maybe my thinking is childish, but this is how i think and wish, wanted to become a child again, experience it and do silly stuffs. Maybe because i did not do much of them during my childhood. Memories of childhood seem like does not exist in my brain at all, even if got, only bits and pieces only, not a complete one, a fragment, I should say. Seeing most of my friends can recall back their memories, whether is good, happy, sad and etc. How I wish that I can do that as well. Nonetheless, having memories and not share out with people is also another problem for me. Sometimes people do take time to get to know my present as well as paying attention to what i have to say.
Sunday, June 3, 2007
Service at Church on Saturday
Well, yesterday afternoon i go to church again with my friend just like last week loh, kinda attracted to it with the environment, just like wat Jacob mention, ppl come to the church because of the environment and friendly people and not because of they like Jesus very much. kinda true and make sense of wat he say. i really like the environment there as well as can listen to the soothing music. besides that, can go to church to listen to story and learn new thing as well. think bout wat i have done in the pass and like how to improve them as well as know wat mistake i had done and try not to repeat them if possible and also the way of life. kinda interesting to me.
The sermon today is about parents, how we should treats our parents, respect them and take good care of them. well, base on wat Jacob say, i really din treat my parents very well loh. kinda sad and kinda make sense of wat he say during his preach. Quite interesting also his preach. we should not raise out voice when talking to our parents, respect our parents, love our parents, communicate with our parents and be with our parents as often as possible, accompany them loh. Seem like i din know do most of the above. so during the end of the service, Jacob ask whoever want to ask for forgiveness from God, can go up-front and ask for it. quite a number of person went up there loh and who are they, i cannot mention since this thing is like consider personal loh. my fren beside ask me if i need to seek prayer from the pastor as well, like ask me to go up-front with the rest of people. So, i just shake my hand and say no, no need. TO be honest, i really need to seek forgiveness loh. From who, i myself also not sure. and since i still learning to talk, to communicate with people as well as how to respect ppl, maybe it takes time loh. sometimes really dont know how to communicate with parents and brothers because since kids/small, already no communication at all to begin with since most of us are quiet. and because of this, we all end up keep quiet only, become quiet till now loh.
overall, can say that there is some improvement in myself loh, like can talk a more than usual if u like compare me with the old me in secondary school.really loh. till now, i still learning loh,how to improve my communication skill as well as like how to talks craps. really dont noe how to talk craps loh. always serious only. but ho, i kinda like to listen to stories more than talking.haha. this is true,dont know why i like to listen to ppl talk, listen to their stories compare with me telling them stories, since like no one want to listen to mine also loh.haiz.sad. seem like no one pay attention to me when i open my mouth.
Since like a few week din update my blog already and alvin keep on asking, 'got update blog or not'. so now, i updating my blog since i got something to write already loh.haha. been here in kl for like almost 2 weeks already and i mostly spend at home,eat,sleep,watching movie,drama. been out like 2 or 3 times only.haha. well, my fren ask me to join a church camp, organise by him during 22 to 24 this month. since i got nothing to do,so i eventually agree with him since he say this camp is not about worship, it is about 'true love worth waiting'. seem like i more interested in love thing. hmm, who knows maybe can meet my true love at the church camp loh or maybe can see lenglui as well.haha.
i think tats all from me loh since i dont know wat else to write. Have a nice day, Friends
The sermon today is about parents, how we should treats our parents, respect them and take good care of them. well, base on wat Jacob say, i really din treat my parents very well loh. kinda sad and kinda make sense of wat he say during his preach. Quite interesting also his preach. we should not raise out voice when talking to our parents, respect our parents, love our parents, communicate with our parents and be with our parents as often as possible, accompany them loh. Seem like i din know do most of the above. so during the end of the service, Jacob ask whoever want to ask for forgiveness from God, can go up-front and ask for it. quite a number of person went up there loh and who are they, i cannot mention since this thing is like consider personal loh. my fren beside ask me if i need to seek prayer from the pastor as well, like ask me to go up-front with the rest of people. So, i just shake my hand and say no, no need. TO be honest, i really need to seek forgiveness loh. From who, i myself also not sure. and since i still learning to talk, to communicate with people as well as how to respect ppl, maybe it takes time loh. sometimes really dont know how to communicate with parents and brothers because since kids/small, already no communication at all to begin with since most of us are quiet. and because of this, we all end up keep quiet only, become quiet till now loh.
overall, can say that there is some improvement in myself loh, like can talk a more than usual if u like compare me with the old me in secondary school.really loh. till now, i still learning loh,how to improve my communication skill as well as like how to talks craps. really dont noe how to talk craps loh. always serious only. but ho, i kinda like to listen to stories more than talking.haha. this is true,dont know why i like to listen to ppl talk, listen to their stories compare with me telling them stories, since like no one want to listen to mine also loh.haiz.sad. seem like no one pay attention to me when i open my mouth.
Since like a few week din update my blog already and alvin keep on asking, 'got update blog or not'. so now, i updating my blog since i got something to write already loh.haha. been here in kl for like almost 2 weeks already and i mostly spend at home,eat,sleep,watching movie,drama. been out like 2 or 3 times only.haha. well, my fren ask me to join a church camp, organise by him during 22 to 24 this month. since i got nothing to do,so i eventually agree with him since he say this camp is not about worship, it is about 'true love worth waiting'. seem like i more interested in love thing. hmm, who knows maybe can meet my true love at the church camp loh or maybe can see lenglui as well.haha.
i think tats all from me loh since i dont know wat else to write. Have a nice day, Friends
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