雪莹，你已经算很幸福了，至少你一值以来不感到孤独， 而我，经常感到孤独，不知要找谁诉苦， 不知找谁一起相处， 经常孤独一个人过日子。不知为什么总是觉得孤独，无时无刻 都不停的烦这个问题。
有一位朋友叫我对周遭的朋友sensitive一点，关心他们的需求， 可是，我能做到吗， 这才是问题。 在KL， 可以说找不到可以诉苦的对相, 更何况我好想要交女朋友
Monday, January 7, 2008
Thursday, November 1, 2007
bad week
It has been long time since i write blog d loh. maybe someone you will be wondering wat had happen to me for the pass few weeks. This week alone is a tiring week. really 'eat up' a lot of times just to study. Monday, tuesday and thursday(today) exam for just this week and can say i totally screwed up maybe all of them but definatedly screwed up one really badly on tuesday. due to tat, make me very down on tat day itself, feel helpless, feel like almost end of the world.
Haiz, really need someone to talk with, but with WHO? somethings are suppose to share, but to share it/them out, i really need trust them in order for me to express them out. here in KL, i somehow dont have tat kind of feel. maybe coz i dont have any 知心的朋友 kua, i dont not know lah. maybe coz i m the type of quiet person, but sometimes i really need some frens to talk with loh, really feel lonely and helpless, got no one to be with u when ever u need them.
today is the 3rd day of exam and already finished 3 paper, which means left 4 more papers and left bout 2 weeks before i leave KL and back to Kch. hopefully next week will be a better week than this week, hopefully can do well in the upcoming exam. really really really wish tat.
saying of this, there is some kind of problem with my DVD rom eh, which make me no mood again. haiz, when go back to Kch,really need to bring to hospital again and need to clarify the term 'waranty' with the service centre since i already sent my laptop there in May this year.
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when i feel lonely, i browse the MSN, see who i wanted to chat with, but got no one tat catch my eye. i also do not know who i want to chat with and wat to chat about. sometimes really feel boring about it leh. besides that, i also keep thinking of finding a partner but someone no girls out there tat really make me 'tachycardia' and 'hypertension'. *hehe*. really can find one loh coz like can share ups and downs with someone and tat someone can really understand me then can no need to like always think here n think there loh. as one saying say '船到桥头自然直' hopefully this really works loh.
i thinks tats it for me now. good luck to everyone out tat who are having exam and study hard. *wish i also can study hard* and also happy birthday to ppl out there who are having their birthday during the mids of exam period, either this week, last week or maybe next week. hehe. bye and sayonara.
Haiz, really need someone to talk with, but with WHO? somethings are suppose to share, but to share it/them out, i really need trust them in order for me to express them out. here in KL, i somehow dont have tat kind of feel. maybe coz i dont have any 知心的朋友 kua, i dont not know lah. maybe coz i m the type of quiet person, but sometimes i really need some frens to talk with loh, really feel lonely and helpless, got no one to be with u when ever u need them.
today is the 3rd day of exam and already finished 3 paper, which means left 4 more papers and left bout 2 weeks before i leave KL and back to Kch. hopefully next week will be a better week than this week, hopefully can do well in the upcoming exam. really really really wish tat.
saying of this, there is some kind of problem with my DVD rom eh, which make me no mood again. haiz, when go back to Kch,really need to bring to hospital again and need to clarify the term 'waranty' with the service centre since i already sent my laptop there in May this year.
******
when i feel lonely, i browse the MSN, see who i wanted to chat with, but got no one tat catch my eye. i also do not know who i want to chat with and wat to chat about. sometimes really feel boring about it leh. besides that, i also keep thinking of finding a partner but someone no girls out there tat really make me 'tachycardia' and 'hypertension'. *hehe*. really can find one loh coz like can share ups and downs with someone and tat someone can really understand me then can no need to like always think here n think there loh. as one saying say '船到桥头自然直' hopefully this really works loh.
i thinks tats it for me now. good luck to everyone out tat who are having exam and study hard. *wish i also can study hard* and also happy birthday to ppl out there who are having their birthday during the mids of exam period, either this week, last week or maybe next week. hehe. bye and sayonara.
Tuesday, September 11, 2007
IMU or UCSI
2 months ago, i chat with my friend who is currently studying in IMU. Since i quite some time did not chat with her, so feel curious about her latest happening. first of all, she was just starting studying in IMU, so i was curious about the environment in IMU. she said that the lift cannot be used as it is for staff only and the excalators have broken down and they need to walk up a lot flight of stairs. besides that, she also mention that it is very cold in the classroom, even with a jacket on.
after seeing all those words appear on the screen i somehow feel happy and lucky that i am here at UCSI, with a nice environment. forget about the small campus and have to walk all the time, it is a nice palce to get my degree.
after seeing all those words appear on the screen i somehow feel happy and lucky that i am here at UCSI, with a nice environment. forget about the small campus and have to walk all the time, it is a nice palce to get my degree.
Birthday??? Present???
Birthday is like just an ordinary day for me since not much people remember it. even if they do remember, it is just wishes from them only. not to say that i want people to give me present, but sometimes i do envy people who receive presents during their birthday, seeing how happy they are. is it there any privillage for girls since like they usually will get lots of presents from their friends? every time when friends' birthday, i will always need to spend some money to share present. however, how come i do not get back what i have spent?
everytime when almost my birthday, parents always just go out to have dinner at some restaurant. they will always ask need to celebrate or not, want present or not (I think so), but i always say no need since my birthday always near Chinese New Year. maybe because all my siblings are boys and also seldom communicate well with them. there will not be any present given out by parents to me and my brothers.
everytime when my friends discuss about birthday and present, i always keep quiet and just listen to them discussing. For example, the girls usually wil get 'gold key' when their 21st birthday from their parents, some sign of adulthood. even some of the boys will receive expensive present from parents. me, on the other hand, always receive shirts from friends and out of the last 5 years, 3 years receive shirts and only receive 3 presents in 5 years time. maybe becayse they will say like if they are sincere, it should be ok already. imagine, every year need to spend about RM100 plus for birthday presents for friends and in return, only receive present which cost like RM50 or less each year.
sometimes really feel jealous when see people celebrate birthday with happy environment. how i wish i could experience it. maybe i should treat my friends for some dinner or lunch during my next 22nd birthday. well, this is still pending and need consideration, but still got less than half a year to go before my birthdays. times really fly.
everytime when almost my birthday, parents always just go out to have dinner at some restaurant. they will always ask need to celebrate or not, want present or not (I think so), but i always say no need since my birthday always near Chinese New Year. maybe because all my siblings are boys and also seldom communicate well with them. there will not be any present given out by parents to me and my brothers.
everytime when my friends discuss about birthday and present, i always keep quiet and just listen to them discussing. For example, the girls usually wil get 'gold key' when their 21st birthday from their parents, some sign of adulthood. even some of the boys will receive expensive present from parents. me, on the other hand, always receive shirts from friends and out of the last 5 years, 3 years receive shirts and only receive 3 presents in 5 years time. maybe becayse they will say like if they are sincere, it should be ok already. imagine, every year need to spend about RM100 plus for birthday presents for friends and in return, only receive present which cost like RM50 or less each year.
sometimes really feel jealous when see people celebrate birthday with happy environment. how i wish i could experience it. maybe i should treat my friends for some dinner or lunch during my next 22nd birthday. well, this is still pending and need consideration, but still got less than half a year to go before my birthdays. times really fly.
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
Being single or in relationship? That is a tough question to answer. Being single has it pros and cons and also does being in relationship. Thinking back few years, when in relationship, the relationship cannot be called as real relationship. Even though gain some experience from it, but still lack of what a couple usually do when together, base on what i think and from television shows.
Whenever I saw my friends together with their partner, somehow deep down inside my heart, I feel jealous or maybe envy. How I wish I can have a partner as well. Having a partner means extra responsibility but also means that having a listener that is trustworthy as well as someone to cuddle with. Maybe my thinking is childish, but this is how i think and wish, wanted to become a child again, experience it and do silly stuffs. Maybe because i did not do much of them during my childhood. Memories of childhood seem like does not exist in my brain at all, even if got, only bits and pieces only, not a complete one, a fragment, I should say. Seeing most of my friends can recall back their memories, whether is good, happy, sad and etc. How I wish that I can do that as well. Nonetheless, having memories and not share out with people is also another problem for me. Sometimes people do take time to get to know my present as well as paying attention to what i have to say.
Whenever I saw my friends together with their partner, somehow deep down inside my heart, I feel jealous or maybe envy. How I wish I can have a partner as well. Having a partner means extra responsibility but also means that having a listener that is trustworthy as well as someone to cuddle with. Maybe my thinking is childish, but this is how i think and wish, wanted to become a child again, experience it and do silly stuffs. Maybe because i did not do much of them during my childhood. Memories of childhood seem like does not exist in my brain at all, even if got, only bits and pieces only, not a complete one, a fragment, I should say. Seeing most of my friends can recall back their memories, whether is good, happy, sad and etc. How I wish that I can do that as well. Nonetheless, having memories and not share out with people is also another problem for me. Sometimes people do take time to get to know my present as well as paying attention to what i have to say.
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